Marillyn Monroe

Marillyn Monroe

Thursday, February 26, 2015


Today I woke up crying
Letting out a sigh
I spent the morning trying
To recall the reason why?

I thought about the dream
What it might have meant
If it all could mean
A disasterous event?

The sadness that arose
Was an agony within
It started at my toes
And crept up thru my skin

I was drenched in tears
My pillow was so wet
My heartaches and my fears
Took with them all regret.

Eventually it ends
Its a form of letting go

A heart wrenching cleanse
A debt you no longer owe.

Wednesday, February 11, 2015

Its a Bitch...

It's a Bitch
When you move in to someone else's house.
It's a Bitch
When they still live with their parents.
It's a Bitch
When you're the only one who has no rights
Because you're not "family".
It's a Bitch
When every argument you have results in..
"If you don't like it, then get out!!"
It's a Bitch
When you alienated everyone 
Because you moved in with someone.
It's a Bitch 
When they know that and play that "get out!" Card
Even more so.
It's a Bitch 
When irrational rules are imposed on you
Because others in the house aren't comfortable.
It's a Bitch 
When you are denied the freedom to be
It's a Bitch 
When you're slowly being imprisoned and 
You don't have the guts to escape........

Saturday, February 7, 2015

The Pathetic

There are people who have the Need to feel superior.
They always point out everyone else's faults or
They Never want to acknowledge positive aspects
In others, instead, they focus on faults
Whether present or past tense.
When you confront these people
Or call them out, or even offer constructive 
They can't handle it. 
Their response is to resort to putting you down
Bringing up shit you did or wrongs you committed
Anything to get the focus off of them.
They simply can not handle the truth.
It's as if they are in a competition for "the better person" 
It's sad.
And then, they blast shit onto social networks
Playing the Victim role to a tee.
They think that hurrying and putting shit out there
Makes them more believable.
They boast about being a good parent, a loving person
 role model of sorts
When, in fact,they're anything but!
When you call them on their shit they say
They've "changed"
Yeah, right. 
They'll call you a drug addict as they're 
Popping Oxycontin, Vicodin and Percocets!
They'll say you're worthless
As they lay in a drug induced stupor for hours at a time
Unaware of where their kids are
They'll say you'll never amount to anything
As they pass their welfare food card around
As payment for pills they fronted.
Sad. Sad.Sad.
It sucks to be them.

Thursday, January 29, 2015

teeter-tottering on regret

I'm sorta teeter-tottering on regret
Have you ever done something 
Or said something
While you're angry?
It's like you meant it but it didn't have to
Come out so harsh
Then when the anger subsides, 
You go over in your head all that 
You said
And you feel bad at your choice of words?
You sorta regret how you phrased shit
But then you sorta don't
Because you felt better after saying it?
Well, I'm teeter-tottering on my previous post
I'm not one to call out people
On their shit
But when some one is bashing your family
And you know they have no right
Because they're just as guilty
After so much, hell, you react.
So I'm not sure of regret
But I am sorry for hurting someone
I just felt the need to post this.
I love my son's endlessly
I'm there for them no matter what.
Every parent should protect their child
No matter how old.

Monday, January 26, 2015

Undercover Addict

This post is dedicated
To my wanna-be daughter in law...
You're pathetic
You're self absorbed and stupid
Look what you went and did NOW...
You fucked yourself big time.
You caused problems, thus, 
Cut your income off.
Your behavior is predictable
Routine and stupid
You always involve others
That don't know 
You're an undercover Drug Addict.
That way they can empathize with you
Pity you and side with you.
It's hilarious.
You post all this "poor little me" shit 
On social networks
In hopes of gaining sympathy.
Making yourself out to be
The victim, the long suffering faithful one
While your man is the one to blame
For everything bad in your life
Well, in case . You didn't know, 
You only come across as a stupid Bitch 
A vindictive scorned idiot.
People are laughing at you.
You're not that slick and they're 
Not that stupid!
Arguments with your man escalate
When you run out of pills.
That's when push comes to shove
And in your drug induced state of mind
You LIE, call the cops, call your bitchass dad
Your loudmouth mother, and every other
fucked up person you know
In an attempt to find an Ali 
So that you can remain
In your own delusional world
Maintaining that victim persona that's so important to you.
Then, the next day and many days after
You panic and call everyone
Trying to find your man
Regretting the shit 
You did, said and started.
Then, you're so retarded that you deny 
Trying to find him.
Stop already.
It's of no use
People see right thru you.
You are a Bona fide 
And other opiates 
Drug Addict. 
The fascade you live is about to become
Aww...boohoo bitch!!

Monday, December 29, 2014


It comes naturally to me.
I'm meant to be a caregiver I feel it comes
Naturally for me.
When I'm in a situation involving kids
We always :have a good time
I have the skills to draw kids to me.
This is a good thing
Even in nursing school I took a lot of pediatric patients
I loved, it.
I know how to listen. I treat them on their level.
Right now 
I'm babysitting my little grandpup
He's a handful but that's ok
I would say the hardest thing is 
Not giving in to giving h I m scraps or snacks.

So far it as been great.
I love animals.
He's on a strict routine that I have to abide to
And it's been .Working out.
I'm glad I'm trusted to care for this beloved dog

Friday, December 26, 2014

Did you have to die on Christmas??

Yesterday was Christmas
But, to us, your kids...
It was "the day Mom died."
Why'd you have to go and do that?
It was so much nicer to be able to refer to that day
As Christmas...just Christmas
Did you think we might forget about you?
You had to have known better.
You are unforgetable.
Dying on Christmas day like you did
Fucked it up for us
Because now we have to be happy
And sad
Even the grandkids that didnt know you
Have to feel that too.
Because they hear us talk and reminise about you
And they know this is not a 100%
Joyous occasion.
But, whatever!...Huh, mom?
Youre all that matters
Even in death.